Sunday, February 14, 2010

Inferiority Complex

Recently I've noticed that i have an inferiority complex and that if affects me quite a lot. I've always not taken myself very seriously and taken the piss out of myelf but it goes deeper than that. Take for example football on a sunday. I'm ok a football, not brilliant but i don't want to play most of the time as i think about what people will think of me when i do. When the ball gets played to me i'm always thinking "don't fuck it up" and then as i'mm thinking that, i normally do.

I never used to be like this i don't think. i used to be really confident talking to women and did really well but now i just think "why would they want to go out with me?" whenever i see or speak to someone i like so just don't bother. I know that alot of this is to do with the current situation i'm in, i just hope it doesn't stay like that when things get better.

When it comes to poker i think it affects me to. There's been alot of talk on blogs and the raise the river forum about psychology in poker. To be a winning player you need to have belief in you ability and just put the hours in and variance will kick in (as said in my last post). I haven't got 100% belief in my ability. I know i can win but still don't know if i make the right decisions 100% of the time and whether that will make me a winning player in the long run.

I'm starting work tomorrow at aviva and i'm hoping that being around people again and working and interacting will help me feel a bit better about myself then i do now.


L4Y SP said...

gl, buddy.

Anonymous said...

Thanks for sharing. Like at all times, on the prosperous and right on target!

Littleacornman said...

Gl with the new job tomorrow.Bound to be a ton of hotties there too...!

United113 said...

Bound to be a ton of hotties there too...!

too right you should have seen the interview :-)

Dafthermit said...

many thanks for the follow and the comment on my wee blog

good luck with the job and everything ,to me this is what i love about blogging when people share their feelings it helps so many other people feeling the same to realise they are not alone

peace and light from the wee tin can in the mountains

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